Coleen Nolan says she’s ‘frightened of being lonely’ as she bravely opens up on love life: ‘I felt redundant as a woman’
Coleen Nolan says her fifties have been the hardest decade yet after a string of personal traumas saw her hit rock bottom.
The Loose Women presenter, 54, tells this week's OK! Magazine that a series of events – beginning with losing her sister Bernie in 2013 to divorcing her second husband Ray Fensome in 2018 – had a major impact on her mental health.
“I felt redundant as a woman,” the mum of three explains. “Obviously I lost Bernie, which started all this off, then I hit the menopause, so hormonally I've been all over the place. Also my marriage ended and my kids are growing up, so for the last three years, I just felt like: “Oh I am done then.” I felt like it was nature's way of telling me I was surplus to requirements now.”
Coleen Nolan looking for love on celebrity version of Flirty Dancing following divorce
Loose Women’s Saira Khan strips naked as she declares: ‘My body no longer makes me feel shameful’
“I was numb,” she continues. “My lowest point was trying to find enthusiasm for anything. I don't want to say that [I was depressed] because I have friends that suffer with depression [but[ I sometimes had to force myself to get out of bed, because I thought, 'What am I getting up for?”
Single Coleen adds that her symptoms were made more severe by her fear of being lonely as her youngest child will soon flee the nest.
“I don't feel lonely at the moment because my youngest, Ciara, still lives at home but I know that won't last forever,” she says. “I am frightened of being lonely one day and the kids putting me in a home. If I had my way, they would live at home forever and I would be in a granny annexe!”
Coleen admits she beat herself up for feeling this way, due to what happened to her late sister. “I also felt guilty for feeling this way because Bernie died at 53 and she would have given anything to be alive,” Coleen acknowledges, before adding that she has now turned a corner.
“I am coming out of it a bit now,” she reveals. “I have started to get my confidence back from doing The Thunder Girls on stage for a week back in September. I was terrified about doing it because I get awful stage fright – I still get nervous going live on Loose Women after two decades – but I pushed myself out of my comfort zone and when we got strong reviews it really bolstered me.
“Also next year is looking so positive because I have the busiest year of my life work-wise, so that's really helped me start to get back to my old self.”
Source: Read Full Article