CHLOE Ferry opened up about her grief after losing her dad to cancer – and admitted that she still texts him.

The 26-year-old reality star said that she has her "down days" and has struggled to accept that she'll never be able to speak to him again.

The Newcastle beauty explained that she finds it "still hard to this day" and said it "still doesn’t feel real".

Speaking exclusively to The Sun, Chloe bravely spoke about how she's been coping since the tragic loss.

"I’m up and down like anyone… it’s kind of a situation where it doesn’t feel real. It happened so quick and you don’t think it’s going to happen to you," Chloe said.

"It’s kind of a situation where it still doesn’t feel real, there are some days where I still go and text my dad and I forget.

"As a person you never think it’s going to happen to you, it’s the worst thing that’s ever happened to us in my life.

"I think that’s why I’m focusing so much on the gym because it’s taking my mind off it. So I’m kind of focusing my mind on something else."

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The Geordie Shore star said she shared a close bond with her father and admitted that she often finds herself thinking about her dad throughout the day.

"We were quite close, we had similar personalities, everyone would say I had my personality from my dad," Chloe continued.

"It’s just hard, it’s still hard to this day and it still doesn’t feel real. I think if you haven’t been through it then you don’t understand, it’s a really weird feeling that you get."

The loss has evidently impacted on her family, with Chloe explaining that despite the tragic circumstances, it has brought them closer together.

She said: "We’re a lot closer now, we’re constantly checking in on each other asking how we are.

"We’re all just dealing with it in different ways, there is no right or wrong way to grieve. Everyone just deals with it differently.

"I still have my bad days, everyone is the same, the more people speak about it the better."

The TV star said she wants to raise more awareness and help people in and around Newcastle after experiencing her own loss.

"I had a knock on my door the other day, I think it was a sign and he said he was working for a place in Newcastle for cancer and I thought I’ve got to help people, so straight away it was a sign.

"It’s going to be hard but I love helping people, I thrive on helping people feel good."

The media personality said she is in a much better headspace now and spoke about the importance of her mental wellbeing.

"If I'm having a down day I like to train, I like to eat good, I like to go for long walks with my dog and some days I like to come off my phone for a day and it always help, the gym was my saviour in lockdown," Chloe added.

'DEVASTATED'

In December, Chloe announced that sad news that her dad had died of cancer and that she was be taking a break from social media and work commitments.

"I've struggled to write this and still can't accept it what I'm about to say!" Chloe started her statement.

"I'm a very open person and normally happy to share all details of my life, however this is a time where I really need to have some privacy.

"I sadly lost my dad after his battle with cancer and it still doesn't feel real!"

Chloe added: "I am going to take a break from social media and work commitments.

"As a family we are all dealing with this and trying to come to terms with it…

"I'd really appreciate it if I was given some time to deal with it in my own way!"

She recently posted a tender moment with her dad for Father's Day.

Chloe celebrated Father's Day with the adorable photo, showing her childhood self cuddled up to her parent.

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