Robert De Niro is ‘anxious’ about reading his late father’s journals

Robert De Niro says he is ‘anxious and can’t face his late father’s demons’ after a new book based on his dad’s journals details De Niro Sr.’s struggles with his mental health and his guilt over his homosexuality

  •  Robert De Niro revealed he hasn’t read his late father, Robert De Niro Sr.’s, journals and that he’s ‘anxious’
  •  Excerpts from the journal are being used in the upcoming book: ‘Robert De Niro, Sr: Paintings, Drawings and Writings: 1942-1993’ 
  • The journal reveals De Niro Sr.’s struggles with mental health, finances, gaining recognition as an artist and his sexuality
  • De Niro Sr. was a prominent and prolific painter who was a child prodigy  
  • The book is scheduled to be released in October 

Robert De Niro isn’t ready to face his father’s ‘demons’ and has refrained from reading the Robert De Niro Sr.’s intimate journals as art historians write a book about the artist. 

The personal and raw details of De Niro Sr.’s life were kept hidden inside a series of journals spanning ten years from 1963. 

Written around two decades after De Niro’s birth, his father’s journals reveal his father’s struggles with his finances, mental health, gaining recognition as an artist and his homosexuality. 

De Niro told The Observer: ‘I’m anxious to read them. I’ll read them when it feels right … but at the moment that’s how I’m dealing with it.’ 

Robert De Niro Sr. (pictured) is the subject of an upcoming book titled, ‘Robert De Niro, Sr: Paintings, Drawings and Writings: 1942-1993’

Robert De Niro (pictured) hasn’t read his father’s journals yet, admitting he’s ‘anxious’ 

Which is why De Niro has allowed art historians writing a book titled, ‘Robert De Niro, Sr: Paintings, Drawings and Writings: 1942-1993,’ to reference them. 

De Niro has only read excerpts of the books, but the one’s he did left him remorseful. 

He said: ‘It was sad for me to read. He had his demons… I was sorry.’

De Niro Sr. grapples with his sexuality throughout the journals, writing in one excerpt: ‘If God doesn’t want me to be homosexual (about which I have so much guilt), he will find a woman whom I will love and who will love me. But I really don’t want my homosexuality to be cured.’

Written around two decades after De Niro’s birth, his father’s journals reveal his father’s struggles – something his actor son was unaware of until recently (Robert De Niro is pictured with his father and mother in 1990)

He also wrote of praying, ‘until I am cured of my mental and emotional sickness.’

Growing up, De Niro didn’t know his father struggled with his sexuality until his mother mentioned it.

‘Robert De Niro, Sr: Paintings, Drawings and Writings: 1942-1993’ is scheduled to be published by Rizzoli in October

‘I wasn’t aware of that … My mother told me once later, when I was a young adult, sort of inferred. I sort of understood,’ he said.

De Niro Sr. seemingly works through his mental health as well, saying he is afraid of his thoughts. 

‘I am full of fear… of the discomfort caused by my own thoughts, feelings, sensations and impulses,’ he wrote.  

‘There is so much I have left out of this journal … My laments, wailings, self-pity and complaining are much greater than I have [indicated] here.’ 

De Niro told The Observer those are the passages among the more difficult to confront.  

His father reportedly did not share his worries with his son, and if he did it was in ‘vague ways.’

Born in Syracuse, New York, De Niro Sr. was raised in an Irish-Italian family where it was discovered he was a child prodigy. 

De Niro (pictured) with one of his father’s art pieces at am exhibition showcasing De Niro Sr.’s work

A child prodigy and prolific painter, Robert De Niro Sr. (pictured) had his first solo art exhibition at the age of 23

De Niro Sr. began taking art classes at the Syracuse Museum of Fine Arts at age 11 in 1933. 

He continued to excel, becoming a leading figure in the New York art scene in the 1940s and 1950s.

At age 23, De Niro Sr. held his first solo art exhibit that persuaded art critic Clement Greenberg to praise the young artist as a rising star. 

‘Guggenheim has discovered another important young abstract painter,’ Greenberg said.  

De Niro Sr.’s work was obtained by galleries like the Metropolitan Museum of Art and Whitney Museum of American Art, but even so he lived ‘a classic artist’s life in a studio that was a mess’, according to his son.   

As De Niro’s career took off in the 1970’s, the two men supported each other in their crafts.

De Niro is currently starring alongside Al Pacino in Martin Scorsese’s new film ‘The Irishman’ (pictured at the premiere)

‘It wasn’t like we sat down and he told me, ‘I like this movie’ … But I know he was proud,’ De Niro said.

In his journal, De Niro Sr. talks about his son getting movie offers and says ‘My little baby-doll has grown up.’    

‘He is tanned from a sunlamp – for his new movie part – and looks much better than when he returned from Italy two weeks ago.’

‘I wanted to run my fingers through his hair and to kiss him, but I hardly think that he would have appreciated it.’

De Niro Sr. died in 1993.  

The book is scheduled to be published by Rizzoli in October.

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